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i am walking down wellington street in a hurry, late for an appointment, checking my blackberry
there is a couple walking ahead of me, hand in hand: they say nothing, and their hands jitter, parting and recombining nervously, as if one or both is afflicted
i move to pass them, and then something stops me: they both laugh suddenly, for no apparent reason, and she rests her head briefly on his shoulder, affectionately
a moment later, she pulls away, and punches him in the shoulder he shakes his head, no, but he is smiling, playful
they have not spoken a word, and i am looking around for a ‘candid camera’: am i supposed to believe this couple are telepathic?
and then suddenly she turns, and in her blank gaze i realize: she is blind, and he is deaf, and with their quivering hands they are quietly, brilliantly, making love
II
we are walking through a forest in the town i’m visiting when we come upon an old couple walking two dogs
one dog is small, animated, running circles around everyone and for a moment it’s the only one i notice
and then the larger slower one comes into view and i realize, to my astonishment that s/he is identical to my beloved, much-mourned chelsea — the same markings, coat, laboured walk, and gentle smile
i gasp, my eyes well with tears, and i’m overwhelmed, on my knees, stroking this so-familiar creature and telling the old couple about my love and my loss
and as they pass to continue on their walk, the woman, who neither of us knows, who doesn’t know us, turns to me and says “you’re welcome to borrow her if you’d like, just drop by any time”.
III
it starts in the office: a group of us are discussing finances; it’s a difficult conversation, and some of the group are defensive, edgy
and i’m listening but not really paying attention visually and then strangely it’s as if the words i am hearing are coming apart, fragmenting, curving around my consciousness, expressing themselves in different colours
and i’m noticing the breath, the pauses, the catch in the throat and i’m hearing fear, and despair that is coming from deep inside these people i hardly know and speaking to me, not in words or tone of voice but in tiny nuances of inflection, silence, breath, emphasis
i am feeling the sound of their voice and the anguish in their bones and i briefly catch the eye of one of the speakers and he looks back at me as if he were naked, as if i’d caught him crying —
and later, talking on the phone, these swirling, coloured words begin again, like another language, an undercurrent at a wavelength i’ve never heard or sensed or realized before, talking not of the subject at hand but of loss, and loneliness, and love |
so you’re not surprisedi’ve seen colors all my lifein iambic form …beautiful, david, just beautiful …
Wow.
What a beautiful way to start my day! Thank you for your gorgeous translation of the love surrounding us in all the tiny moments, if only we are open to seeing them. Just lovely!
Thank you — I never get tired of hearing such kind and wonderful comments.
I’m sobbing with recognition and honor of your path. In case you haven’t seen it, please visit Jena Strong’s re-post from Monday…http://bullseyebaby.blogspot.com/2009/01/violinist-in-metro.html Thank you for the heart-opening this morning, Dave.
Hey Dave,I just checked in after a long time to find this beautiful poem of moments and feeling. Love your work Dave. Touch base when you’re back on the coast.Cheers, Doug
My favorite is is the first one, hands down. It reminds me “Morning Bath,” by Degas.http://arthistory.heindorffhus.dk/degas-fujeira1972-04-medium.jpgImpressionist painters started painting the way that they did because they were living in the cusp of a burgeoning society. They used their quick brush strokes and stippling methods in order to capture fluid, temporal moments in time. Whenever I look at Impressionist paintings, I’m always reminded of memories. No specific memories of my own, but memories in general and how one recalls them. And that’s what Degas painted in “Morning Bath.” But he acted in the now and painted in the moment. Before he lost the image–the memory–of the unknown woman preparing to take a bath.
Also:Richard Aschroft”Break the Night with Colors”http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EY8ZupeNP6A