Ask a person what she or he regrets most and you’ll probably learn more about them than you could from asking any other question. Many of us are defined, not by what we’ve done, but what we wish we’d done, or not done. If the response to this question is mostly regrets about things that are outside their control — like not being born rich or beautiful or in another century, you’re probably talking to someone who makes excuses. If they’re mostly regrets about things not done, you’re probably talking to someone with low self-esteem, someone who doesn’t like themselves very much. If they’re mostly regrets about not working harder, you’re probably talking to someone who isn’t very honest with themselves! Regrets about things not done and about things done are really two sides of the same coin. You only have so much time in your life, and so many choices, and to the extent you choose to do something you also choose not to do something else. My initial list of ‘What I Regret Most’ was almost entirely things I hadn’t done, and then I realized I could re-word each of them into a regret about what I did instead. The extent to which self-esteem plays into our regrets is fascinating, but also, as the graphic above shows, a little paradoxical. It is almost as if nature furnished us with a self-regulatory ego, to keep us from getting either too full of ourselves or too down on ourselves. In listing your regrets, you need to follow one ground-rule. You can only list things you had (or now have) some control over. You may regret not winning the lottery, or that some celebrity you never met didn’t fall in love with you, or that Bill Gates or Bill Clinton didn’t pick you as his successor (or in my case, that I am shy, insensitive and a slow learner), but this is the stuff of daydreams, not regrets. If you confuse the two you will be a very unhappy person. There must be something you can do now that will make up for past wasted time or ignorance or foolishness, and rectify or alleviate or at least mitigate your regret. If it simply might have been, it’s not a regret, it’s a fiction. In the interests of self-disclosure, of helping my readers to know a little bit more about me, as a self-prompt at this critical juncture in my life, and as a thought-provoker for updating my About the Author bio that you’ll find in the right sidebar, I thought I’d make a list of the ten things in my life I regret most. Here, in rough order of how much I regret these things, is the list:
Things happen the way they do for a reason, and there is a perfectly reasonable explanation why I did, or failed to do, the things that I now regret doing or not doing. There is no going back, and grieving about the past is futile and self-destructive. I became a wage-slave (regret #1) instead of creating a natural enterprise with others (regret #8) because, at the time, I didn’t know better. As a result of that I was too tired and disheartened to take good care of myself (regret #3), or to spend time in nature (regret #4), and therefore got upset easily (regret #6) and indulged in meaningless escapism (regret #5). I didn’t make more friends and lovers (regret #2) because I was shy and insensitive, and learned social graces slowly. I ate meat (regret #7) because I didn’t know better, and I wore clothes all the time (regret #9) because, until recently, I didn’t have the privacy to do anything else. Also until recently, I had failed at everything I tried to do that involved manual dexterity, so I had given up trying to learn self-sufficiency skills (regret #10). What I need to do, to strike each of these regrets off my list so that, when I die, I can honestly say I did everything I wanted and hoped to do, and had no regrets, is pretty self-evident, once you know why I regret them now. Taking stock of your regrets now, understanding why you regret them, and then resolving to do the obvious things that can put them behind you, can be a useful process. In fact, once you’re aware of the regrets that were/are in your control, and understand why you regret them, you seem to sub-consciously start to make the changes needed to alleviate them. Alas, it takes a great deal of self-knowledge both to take stock of your regrets and to understand what underlies them. Most of us live such complicated and busy lives that we have neither the self-awareness nor the time to do so. We go through life knowing we’re not really happy but not really knowing why. Just to be provocative, I’ve also put together a list of three things I don’t regret not doing, because I’m sure they would appear on many people’s Regrets List:
What would your Regrets List look like? Remember the ground-rule: Only include things that you had (or now have) at least some control over, things that there is something you could do now to rectify, alleviate or mitigate that regret. Do you understand why you regret them? And if so, have you already subconsciously started to change your life to put them behind you? |
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You want to get really edgy? I have very few regrets in my life, but one thing I would do differently is not go to school. Not that I regretted school, just that it was such a waste of time and a dangerous place. physically violent, psychologically violent and worst of all, all coated with good intentions and well-meaning folks. The worst kind of place is one where you are subjected to the worst excesses of society’s control instincts and where everyone consents to the lie that it’s good for you.I have ZERO regrets about unschooling my own kids!
On what basis or study are you categorizing someone’s personality if they regret something not done or something out of their control. In addition – in my humble opinion, if you actually had followed all of 10 items in your regret list then I would bet that you would be a very unhappy person – just my 2 cents
You need a whole new category to deal with this post, my friend.My regrets are that I did not do things sooner, yet I know I could only have done them in the time I did, so…no regrets, really. The only thing I’ll take issue with is the “I love you” bit. Of course it is more important to show, but the words are good. They are a balm. They make the giver’s heart sing and the receiver’s heart relax into a puddle of goo.Thanks for this post. Get right on that yoga, okay?
About this “I love you” that communicatrix points out, i will add that if your partner´s main perceptive modality is auditive…. no showing in this world would have been enough……–I feel that between options, i mean choices, regrets, and the consequences of choices (other than regret or satisfacction), lies a road full of unconscious details that influenced our options, in a “blink”. I bet that if you had not lived all the “regrets from 1 to 10” the way you did, you would not be who you are now…. I live what you call regrets as constructive learnings…..that have helped me construct my “me” of today. Our unconscious is like more holistic…. takes into consideration variables different to our conscious take…. (I hope i was able to be clear…)
Not looking after myself better; caring too much too long; possibly, possibly…eating meat (but I’m still eating it)
I’ve had the good fortune to get to know you personally, and spend time with you going beyond ‘small talk’, and I can say unreservedly and in public that I love you for being so fiercely and clearly who you are. You inspire me .. probably too much, ‘cuz I don’t know how I (or anyone else, for that matter) can keep up. But what a great lighthouse you are.
Another comment on the “I love you” bit. I agree with Mariella that if you or your partner’s main perceptive modality is auditory, then expressing love by doing things for the person is just not going to register all that much as a meaningful demonstration of affection and caring. On the other hand, for someone who does interpret doing things for their partner–or having their partner do things for them like running an errand, helping with household chores, etc–it probably won’t mean as much as a “valid” expression of affection to hear “I love you”. There is a book that was published a few years ago called “The Five Languages of Love” and it outlines different modes of interpreting expressions of affection, whether given or received. I found the information in this book to be quite informative and regret that I didn’t have this knowledge many years ago. My regrets stem from the adventures and experiences that I’ve missed due to an aversion to risk-taking or an over-developed sense of caution.
This was such a stimulating post, Dave. I’m kind of surprised that with all the readers you have on a given day, it didn’t elicit more comments. Made me think, I’ll tell ya! At first, I was firmly in the “few regrets” column…until I read your own very candid list. The one that resonated with me most was not having taken care of my body better. I mean, geez, we only get one time around in this one, and presumably we want to make the most of it/have it last for as long as possible. Time to re-think a few choices I’m making about food and exercise, yessir. Thanks for the nudge!
There must be something you can do now that will make up for past wasted time or ignorance or foolishness, and rectify or alleviate or at least mitigate your regret. I wanted to say something helpful but you just don’t get it! Your life is the way it is because you are who you are!For example (just an example because I don
I have very few regrets in life that concern things on which I had some control. With the exception of having taken forever to become comfortable with rejection by potential partners and not take it personally, I cannot think of anything. Most of the regrets I have involve outside elements resorting to extreme measures to impose themselves and forcefully crash personal life projects I had patiently built over the years. I refer to the previous thread here about how decisions made by others can dramaticlaly affect one’s life in sometimes irreversible ways. Eventually, one reaches a conclusion that it’s better not to attempt much of anything, out of frustrations resulting from vultures repeatedly crashing everything.Funnily enough, I had this discussion yesterday with a good friend. He was commenting how I seem to have little interest for anything in life assides from gastronomy and how I basically seem to have no career plan whatsoever (I used to be known as someone with a zillion of ideas and endless enthusiasm to try anything once). I answered that this is a fair assessment. I eventually became tired of seeing projects repeatedly crashed by outside influence and decided that I could not survive another blow, so I pared down my lifestyle and have been living a more plentiful, though admitedly materially limited, existence. I droped out of the rat race and I’m happy. IIRC there is something in Eastern philosophies about Illumination coming the day one acknowledges and accepts that this world is nothing but suffering. I would tend to agree.
Zach,You’re the one who doesn’t get it. You missed the whole point of his sharing. I loved it for what it taught me, how it enlightened me, and how much of it I can think about now, as I go about my life as a wage slave. I’m learning from your words, and so grateful you shared, and Zach, go get a big mirror and read that email to yourself, save the rest of us some wasted criticism.